Dreaming of Yesterday

Emotions are like a roller coaster, and I need God to keep me belted in...

My academic life doesn't seem to allow me much time like this...

Sometimes I see myself and am startled because I expect myself to look 14.

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I usually don't try to get all personal, but here we go... Goodness squash rice!  I dislike not knowing the emotions of people I am directly interacting with.  It is so easy for me to be so mean, but I feel like everything I say I have to think about and rephrase in my head, as to sugar coat the truth.  I may be the culprit of my own judgement when it comes to this, but people are so sensitive.  I know it is partially the ways of American cultural, but growing up with one parent Puerto Rican and the other Chineese... you can imagine the clash of culture... which isn't much like the American culture.  Also, my close friend Jas is Indian, and apparently her culture is "tell it like it is."  Being like Jesus is so hard- I need to work on being love.

As time passes, of course people change.  Friendships come and go but that is part of life.  Attending 7 schools prior to college has shown me this.  Perhaps it was a forced acceptance, but none the less I accept it.  I suppose that has made me take the word "friend" with a graver tone.  I do consider many many people I know acquaintances, even those who consider me their friend... but to me a friend carries so much weight, commitment and honesty.  In my mind, that does not leave room for me to truly use the word "friend" lightly.  People I have met that have grown up moving around a lot have the same view as myself, but what percent of our population has really moved around as many times as me?

End of summer.  This is it! Although I am missing the first two days of college, the past 2 weeks of my summer have been so fruitful.  Right after my summer research internship was over I FLED to my second hometown.  Honestly, I am way over my current home town- and college in general.  Aside from one negative where I hurt someone's feelings(really due to personal differences and a misunderstanding which I have to give time before I revisit),

•  I saw my friend get married,
•  Modeled for a boutique (details coming SOON!), 
• Spent more money than expected on super cute pieces(not really a plus), 
• Held hours of photo shoots,
• Networked with another boutique, 
• New running sneakers (for my very wide feet) were purchased!,
• Enjoyed nature, 
• Connected with my sisters in Christ, 
• Had a mental break, 
• AND Lost fat (aka became more healthy). 

These last two weeks seemed more fruitful than my entire school year! Because if you do what you love, you will love what you do! <3

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