See, Listen & Read!
This week threw so many things at me (on top of midterms, volunteer, school clubs and dance) that I am not even fully mentally accepting that I lived it.
Below are pictures of a carnival I went to on Friday followed by a song from Kari Jobe and words.
|Cross & Mustache Rings | Rox My Sox Bangles | F21|
Does no word exist to describe the kind of week I had? I have tried and am not even sure what to share, what to dumb down, and what to exclude in this post for you. When I look back on it, this week happened so fast that it feels like a few hours ago was two weeks ago. It is as thought I just opened my eyes from blinking, stare down at my feet, and realize it is two weeks later and this body I am in has taken me through the weeks... like a time capsule. It's like I am doing a million things and God is carrying me through and I don't even need my body.
|-A favorite from a photo shoot I took this weekend-|
Dependence. I have learned that I am now going to find myself on the receiving end. When I have nothing I can offer for the kindness someone offers me it reminds me of Jesus. Jesus Christ who would die in love... I don't think it is that he expects absolutely nothing in return... it is more like there is nothing we possibly offer him that he could need except living forward the love that He has taught us to live out.
My relationship to God: faith and living out the love he taught me
Expectations. I have realized that people without a faith do not truly understand why someone with faith would live the way they do. This does not come to me as a surprise. I know in living out my faith I have to be sure to live it out in love. Doing this has been recognized by some who wonder why I am the way I am. This week I was told "I have to remind myself that you are human." The answer to my personality is Christ who has showed me how to live in love(although I can be quite mean and very obnoxious). Someone once told me, "You truly love God if you have once hated him." I do not think this is necessary because I love me parents with all my heart and have never hated them. I also learned about hot & cold this week...
Hot & Cold in your soul. Yesterday I spent an entire day at a church craft fair raising money for foreign economic development. There I met an amazing woman. She told me a story about a young man who had been completely lost in life... she had been praying for him for 8 years. Then one day he woke up crying, fell on his knees, gave his life to God, and became a missionary. The young man was her son. The verse below is what she would pray daily with. She told me sometimes it takes someone to be very cold before they desire and go back to the warmth...
11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.
12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
13You will seek me and find me
when you seek me with all your heart.
14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord,
“and will bring you back from captivity.
b I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,”
declares the Lord,
“and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”
Interaction. At the craft fair I saw this strawberry blonde, crystal blue eyed, more attractive Matt Bomer man. I know. It was so weird because it was like a piece of another realm had stepped into reality. Like I was looking at a magazine or something unrealistic. Sometimes I am just at awe at how outwardly stunning I feel God has made some people... I don't even know what to think because when I see people like this my brain and body just shut down and I honestly have no idea what to do. Thus I avoid them to avoid this situation...it's a problem. lol
|-A favorite from a photo shoot I took last weekend-|
Relationships. God is the most important thing in life, followed by family, then friends. Being someone who comes from a strong and close-knit family, I do not find friends as important as others may- but for many people friends become like family. I believe that God and family are worth investing time in because friends come and go, but God will never leave you, and family (whether blood or people who have become your family) have true love for you. While I am on the subject, I have also realized how incredibly busy priests are. No wonder they do not marry- every moment they have is for the body of Christ (the church).
So... this isn't even my whole week but I do feel like I became so much wiser this week. Amen.
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*Shout out to Terry because you deserve it*